What will we take away from lockdown

So it seems that Boris is going to have a think over the weekend about ungrounding us and letting out to play again! I hope that he will heed the advice of the experts and make a decision based solely on the evidence and not, as is the temptation bow to the will of the foil hat wearing conspiracists and the other cranks that seem to trawl the internet these days peddling whichever half baked unfounded statistic supports their theory.

I had a very interesting conversation with a family member who works for the NHS (by the way since when did having a family member in a specific role become a qualification) who told me that shes has been a little disheartened by the amount of breaches of the lockdown that she has witnessed recently, from full on garden parties to non family groups walking about the streets. I myself have noticed a significant increase in the traffic on the roads over the last few days (out of my office window, mostly) so the isolation fatigue is definitely setting in! I am desperate to get out, I don't even know where I will go! I just want out, but not at any cost. I have seen posts today that would make your teeth itch, posts that have me wondering about the humanity of the poster when they aggressively promote the opinion that a number of people are expendable to protect the economy, like the two things are anywhere near of equal value. or maybe I am wrong?

All of the above accepted I will however take something away from this period of restricted consumerism and comparative tranquility. I have learned to recognise when I am stressed and acting or behaving out of emotion. I have learned that the worst case scenario is never really all that bad. I have learned that I am not an island and that when my family are out of reach I miss and worry about them regardless of the circumstances of their absence. I miss old friends and despite the delusion that I am above all things petty, I like a gossip and i like to know what is happening in people's lives (don't tell anyone but sometimes I silently judge them!). On a deeper level I have also learned a lot about myself and in some cases my insecurities I have learned or confirmed that I am very good at what I do although i have some personal traits to work on. I have learned that perception is key and as i reminded my disheartened family member don't spend your time and energy thinking about the minority of people breaking the lockdown rules, think about the huge majority who are observing them because they are like us and have a common value in taking responsibility for their action and equally the impact of those actions on others.

My Takeaways from lockdown (so far)

I need my family to support me as much as I need to support them.

I am insecure about a lot of things whilst being outwardly very confident.

I sometimes forget what I am doing all of this for.

I am both vulnerable and strong.

Perception influences truth.

I think about things at a much deeper level than I am prepared to reveal openly.

I am comfortable in my own skin.

I don't like being alone for too long (despite my claims to the contrary)

I fancy a pint!!!!!!!!

Finally and most importantly I am happy.